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[27 Aug 2004|01:57am] |
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well my summer is coming to its end. in all i think i had a good summer. sure the beginning was a bit slow. but thats how all my summers are. i need time to get situated in them. but around the middle things looked good. i was going to plenty of badass gigs and practicing a bit. the screening has gotten better. our friends are telling us to make catalogs. which i think we will make sometime early in the school year. i made friends with someone (amoung many others) who i didn't even think liked me. I've been trying to be as nice to everyone as i possibly could and its paid off. the band is now doing awesome again and we're practicing a shit load with our spot. and my love is now able to go out a lot more. and... most of her family likes me now! now i just gotta pay attendion in school and i'll be sailing smooth. but that don't mean i think anything good about school. its a fraud and i'll happily tell you why if you ask. and to all who say "then why do you go to school" i say: funny thing, i don't really think my parents would enjoy prison much and i wouldn't enjoy the beating either.
peace//love
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[15 Aug 2004|09:21pm] |
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hah, i was mistaken. my parents are gone for 11 days.
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| I CAN"T WAIT TO SEE HOW THE REST OF THIS SUMMER TURNS OUT! |
[13 Aug 2004|01:26am] |
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it's friday morning and my parents leave like in a day and a half. i'm gonna have the house to myself...well not really. i'll be sharing it with my sister but it's as good as mine. but really its not gonna be a big change. everything will be exactly the way it always is. i'm really not gonna take advantage of the situation because i kinda don't wanna. my dad told me to do some of his chores while he's out. thats understandable. he also told me to be home most of the time. well i don't know about that. since i'm never really home anyway. i'll just be out like i usually am. so, like i said its all pretty much gonna stay the same. DAMN my love is away at camp for a week! how am i gonna do it? how am i gonna go threw these next seven days without hearing her beautiful voice and listen to her talk about what antics she got herself into as she is forced to do nothing. man, i love her so much. i just need to see her. just for a millisecond. well, i do have like ten-thousand pictures of her hehe. but i have to look on both sides. the plus is i'm not gonna be on the phone as much, so i can do more stuff with the band and just work on our responsibilities. but still...i can't wait till the day me and her can just go out routinely and live more of our lives together. but i'll wait. thats how much i love her. i'll wait forever if i have to. we're gonna practice tomorrow with Don. seriously its cool cuz things are finally starting to come together for us. and i mean us as in the band. we should start playing again in EARLY september. oh i just got back from New York like two days ago. i hated it. if you wanna know why ask me and i'll tell you. ok, i'm gonna go i have to check up on some silk screens that we're making. i'll ramble later
peace//love//autonomy
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[02 Aug 2004|11:41am] |
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OK, i really don't think anyone even looks at my journal but fuck it i don't care i just use this thing as exactly whats its called a journal. it just supposed to be for me to write down what i'm feeling and whats going on in my life. well, i really haven't updated in a longass time so that might contribute to why no one checks this shit out. oh well i couldn't care less i still love you all DAMNIT! we've been practicing alot lately but just me and chris. no don though. his mom sent him to his dads to live there cuz of his grades. as if that letters on a peice of paper are supposed to mean anything about anyone. hes a really smart guy who can take care of himself in this fucked up world. but if he wants to go out he has to do good. He didn't show up today though. due to the fact that he was sleeping. ehh... so i guess it'll just be me and chris again. and the reason we've been manageing to practice so much is because we soundproofed our guest room in my house and we made it our practice spot. so thats fucking awesome we can do so much and no one will complain. yep. umm, i went to the movies with amanda two days ago. and it was awesome. i love going out with her. every time i go out with her i feel so happy and it never ends until like an hour after she leaves. oh yeah and summer school has ended so i'm pretty open for like 5 weeks. so thats awesome. well we're gonna practice so
peace//love
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[18 Jun 2004|03:57pm] |
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damn, i didn't post last weekend. i was a little busy with finals and all. but summer vacation finally began today. yesterday was the last day of school. i didn't do anything. and i'm really not doing anything today. we were suppost to practice but personal familly problems arose with our guitarist and i'm not sure whats gonna happen today. if we don't practice then me and chris are just gonna go to kinkos and make some stuff. my sister wants us to make her a shirt of a band she likes. its cool i'm not gonna work this summer. it'll give me more time to be active and responsible about things around here. it'll also give me some time to practice with the band i guess. it'll be a good summer.i just don't wanna go on vacation with my family this summer. everytime we go on vacation its always the worst time i experience the entire year. for example: last summer i was having some real bad problem between myself and someone really close to me. and being away from home and not being able to deal with and take care of things is fucking hell. and aside from that my family is really testy on vacation. i don't like to speak up because of a fear of being yelled at. i can't do anything that makes me happy because no one else would be happy. why can't i just do what makes me happy? no one has to follow me, or care about what i do. lastly i don't like tourists. and when i say tourist i mean the average, hey stand over there and make a stupid pose for a picture, ok lets take a picture over there! tourist. so...in all i just don't like vacations with my family. and it's not like i don't like vacations. i just don't like them with my fam. i'm just never happy. so my goal this summer is to have a summer that satisfys me
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[08 Jun 2004|11:00pm] |
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ok, its been like a decade since i've updated. Not too much is new. We finally have a clear line up for Civil Disgust (formerly known as Extricate). School is comeing to a halt and finals are this week and next week. But all of mine are this week. So this has got to be one of the most scholastically difficult weeks in my life. I don't even know if i spelled that right...Anyway i love Amanda, and my cuz is gonna spend some time here cuz of family problems. Banquet is Sat so i gotta practice my dancin. Pssh YEAH RIGHT! Summer will be awesome and i can't wait to tell you of my plans this weekend. Don't worry i will post this weekend. PEACE//LOVE
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[02 May 2004|02:58pm] |
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bored...hanging with chris. chris has jizz on his nose.. but not from me...i swear... c'mon i have a gf. the best one in the world mind you. if you disagree then fuck you! haha... man i'm so high! cuz i'm in a plane right now.... a marijuana plane. JJEEAAAHH! oh damn, i'm just acting stupid right now. and so is chris....haha babe you'll never wanna see me like this. i won't let you. fuck its hot right now. we need to practice soon. we also need to abolish this fucked up planet we live in... i like a lot of the people in it though. an i love one very very much. i love the others too though but only one is my pigmonkeyhorse.
FUCK YOU CHRIS!!! BEFORE I PASTE "BEST FRIEND" TO YOUR FOREHEAD!
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[12 Apr 2004|12:12pm] |
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I'm at the library right now. I'm with the love of my life.And I'm having the best time of my vaca so far.I'm probobly gonna be bored later on so if anyone wants to hang out' call me.PLEASE!!!!!!! I Love amanda!!!
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[19 Mar 2004|06:24pm] |
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Don't you hate those days where everything seems to go wrong? First of all i didn't get to go to Saddies. And me and my gf where planning on going for like a month, and we bought the tickets and shirts already. Then she gets her phone taken away. Then my dad gets all pissed at me cuz of grades, but then he gets all happy again when i tell him about me getting tutoring (hhmm, what does that tell you?). And now its a friday night and there are no gigs that i know of right now. Chris is at the movies with David and Luis. Our squat house is gonna get demolished. And i have nothing to do but make a patch and attach it to my jacket. I'm gonna try to see if anyone is willing to go out right now. YEAH I'MMA MAKE MY OWN FUN! I just gotta see who can wants to go out, or kick it. whatever. aight. I'm gonna go now. i'm gonna do something productive then call someone up. lates.
PEACE//LOVE
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[14 Mar 2004|01:00pm] |
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VERY BUSY WEEKEND. tired. its slowing down though. we might play on the 26th and the 27th. the 27 is a special gig hehehe...
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[26 Feb 2004|08:34pm] |
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fuck, i haven't cried about my spikes passing at all since i found out about it on friday and i knew i was overdue for one. i knew i was gonna be by myself one day and just start to cry. wow, i couldn't have been more right. i just saw my sisters AIM info that said:
"You will never be forgotten, but I hope I stop crying myself to sleep over you. I love you and I miss you!"
"My baby Spike....Spiky"
and when i read those words i couldn't help but just put my head on the desk and cry...i loved that puppy. but he was in pain, and that was the best thing we could have done (besides give him a cure that doesn't exist). i'll never forget him either. from when i could pick him up and hold him like a baby to his slower days as a mature dog. i miss him
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| i wrote this down during 5th, (the comp was acting gay) |
[23 Feb 2004|09:18pm] |
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well, i'm here in 5th right now. and i'm doing nothing cuz i finished our flash assignment early. cuz i've been using that program for about 2 and a half years, and the teacher is teaching the basic stuff, so yeah. i just saw my babe right now. all i had to do is ask to go to the restroom. i love her very much. i can honestly say that she is my best friend at school. a best friend that i can do "stuff" with... and stuff like express how i'm feeling, bitch to her about things that piss me off, rest my head on her comfortable body, and listen to and experience her cuteness. i know theres a million things that i'm leaving out but i can't type them all. all i can say is that theres not much more i can ask for. but she just keeps getting better. and i love her for it.
MOTHER!!!!
i'm bored
damn i wanna get a new amp but mine is still pretty new. i want a half stack but i don't have enough money. i guess i'll just keep using other peoples. at least until we play more gigs. oh well,i'm gonna go i'll keep you posted on the new amp development in the coming months. PEACE.
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[10 Feb 2004|08:13pm] |
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Well, we made our demo. and it don't sound as great as the original recordings we made. so you might be asking then we didn't you use the other ones. well my friend...the reason why we didn't use them is because of the drums. yup thats right the drums. you couldn't hear them for shit. so at least in these recordings you can hear them pretty good. anyway we're just gonna make copies of the covers and lyrics and whatnot and then we can distribute them. it should be done by this weekend. oh and my grades came. they're good. like it even matters... PEACE//LOVE!
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[02 Feb 2004|07:46am] |
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In school it sucks, i must see the pretty tree
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| ITS BEEN A WHILE! |
[29 Jan 2004|09:54pm] |
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haha thats my babe! isn't she so pretty? yeah i love her much.
<333333!
yeah, so yesterday was cool. my gf came over and we watched wizard of oz. it was my first time watching it. i thought it was good. she stayed for a couple of hours and she left. then today school was ok. but the good stuff didn't happen until after.. i went out with my babe for about an hour and we had some pretty crazy conversation. then i went to chris'. luis was there. we ate and listend to music and stuff. me and luis got into a draw off. lol. a contest to see who draws better. i lost do to technicality. (i forgot to show a piece of the plane, pssh)anyway then luis left and me and chris went to 7/11 and the doughnut shop. then i went home.
oh yeah, we play tomarrow. and i wrote this awesome new intro that'll replace this old crappy intro we used to have. we're gonna play it tomarrow. it'll be coo. ok i'mma go now. please post!
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[19 Jan 2004|02:18am] |
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Tired, gonna die, 2:19 in the morning, don't know why i'm up this late. saw chris. face ugly. so i eat chris. mmmmmm tasty... 7 months one day for me and Amanda. Love her much. ::yawn:: tired, gonna die. night everybody. i sleep now. mmmmmm sleeep...
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| HMM! brainwashing! |
[14 Jan 2004|08:16pm] |
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HEYHEY! whats up! its been four days since i've posted. Damn thats a long time. Anyways, yeah school is back in session. It sucks balls. It's funny how easily i now notice how much school is so damn repetitive. All it is is a training ground to make us into work machines. And prepare us for the "real world". PRODUCTS MAN! literally. We are the item and the companies are the consumers. They walk by with their stupid carts and pick and choose us. Which one of us has the best qualities and grades, where we were made (which schools we attended), and what ingredients do we have (our backgound). Then they scan us and we become a number on their computer... Yeah, so it sucks. oh well, at least i get to see my babe again. She makes it worth going to. Yeah shes so awesome. I can't wait till summer we're gonna do so much stuff. She says shes gonna take me to the beach and into the water. Haha, nah uh... fuck that! i'm not gonna get my leg bitten off by a shark...or worse...i could get eaten by a JELLY FISH! AAH! ok so i'mma gonna go. i need to do my hw if i wanna keep my freedoms. ok see ya. PEACE//LOVE.
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hhmmm..how do i explain this?? i feel funny.. well, yesterday Chris came over. We chilled here for a while, then we headed off to the mall with my mom. I wanted to go to piss off the guys at Mr. Entertainment by using the amps too loud. But Chris didn't wanna do it. Haha i guess it was a good call, since i do buy stuff over there. So we looked around and saw Ange and Jebuz shopping. We conversed then moved on to look at books and stuff. Haha, the sex guides are funny/wrong. Then Chris went home and i pretty much spent the night talking to my girlfriend. And today i went out to eat. Then came home to finish my HW. I'm still not sure why i feel funny. I guess its the thought that i'mma see my gf in a day. I mean school sucks, thats true. But i don't care when i'm with her. Damn i gotta start to go to sleep earlier or i'm never gonna be able to get up for school. So... who thinks school is horrible?
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[09 Jan 2004|01:26am] |
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you are: the spin kick! You are dangerous when done
in a small space, people are scared crapless of
you!
Which moshpit move are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
while i'm really not into this crap. i thought i'd take the quiz. i thought the moves were pretty funny/stupid
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| EEEH DAMN! |
[07 Jan 2004|09:50pm] |
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Well, i got home about two hours ago. i feel like shit for reasons that don't seem too big, but its the fact that they have been going on for so long and they're gonna keep going on till i'm well past my teen years. I mean like the fact that my parents (and by parents i mean my dad) are always on my ass about school. And i know some of you might be saying he only wants the best for you. TRUE. But why does school have to be the only thing they care about? It seems like whenever we talk about my future. School is the only thing that plays in the conversation. I mean, sure, school is the biggest way to be "something" in life. *cough* product. But why does it have to be the biggest way? I mean letters on a paper that comes every two months determines our future. And all at an age before we're adults. And my dad treats it like this all powerful thing. I mean he calls me a bad kid for that shit. i mean c'mon! a bad kid!?! it's not like i come home with cops, or i got a girl pregnant. oh well i got a lot of my extra credit work done today. that'll make my papa happy. i mean that is all he's gonna ask about. not about my friends or my girlfriend or my band or beliefs or the world around me. well that sentence brings up a couple of other things pissing me off. the band... well the bands awesome right now. its just the people relating to it. there are so many people that think we suck and are gay. all for one reason.... we don't do drugs. its funny how the people related to us do drugs and have local bands that "blaze" with them. its just stupid. we need to meet different people. Last but not least my GF, my wife (one day). I love her so much. its just i have to wait a long time before we can have a physical relationship (not in that way you sickos!) outside school. A year, two tops. and that stresses the hell out of me. cuz i need her. she makes everything that much better. She is like a drug. The only one i need. It sucks worse than being single, cuz at least i wouldn't know what i'm missing. Oh well, as much as i'm frustrated about it i think i'm really getting the hang of being without her. I'm still not ok. i'm never ok without her. but i'm gettin better. oh well fuck it we're gonna get married finish college get married again then have somewhere between 3 and 9 babies! wow. and about the other things i guess i'll just have to sit back and say cheese till i'm 18.
and about the physical relationship with my GF... OK sometimes in that way.
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